Sunday morning blahs

I would like to know why we can't start spring like the other half of the country. I'm tired of the cold and want it to be at least warm enough for me not to have to wear a jacket. Yesterdays high was a wopping 49 degrees, while my friends and family in other parts of the country get 75 and 80. Oh well I guess thats what I get for moving to the north.

I love having a sunday off. I don't know why its any different from any other day, but there is just something about Sundays. I have no plans as of right now, but I do at some point want to make my way to the grocery store and also to the gym. I've laid off the cardio a lot and really started weights but I'm not seeing the reults I thought I would. Part of that may have to do with the fact that I'm not eating nearly healthy enough. UGG I hate to diet or watch what I eat. Why does it have to be so much harder the older you get.? I've got to find the motivation I had a few months ago. Summer is coming and I am determined that this year I'm wearing shorts. I haven't worn shorts in years, because I carry a lot of my weight in my legs and can't ever find shorts that fit both my thighs and my waist comfortably. Anyone know any good exercises for the lower region of your body?

I'd like to break your damn computer!

I'd like to break my husbands computer! The man spends all his free time on it, playing his stupid video games. He leaves in just a few months for Basic training and he chooses to spend his time talking to people in other states he doesn't know and playing video games. I don't get it. I don't expect him to be with me and Buggy every min, but he's been playing the same game ALL day long. Only time he has stopped is to cook dinner and eat. It took him exactly 3.5 minutes to inhale his dinner so he could go back in there and continue to play. How does a wife compete? How do I get him to see that he's over doing it on the computer? To make matters worse he and I had asked his grandmother to come and visit us and he has spent zero time with her. She seems to be ok, but its driving me nuts. I would be so angry in her position.

Sittin at and airport in Phoenix

My work trip eneded today and so I made my way to the airport, dropped off my rental care, and then found myself at the gate over and hour and a half early. I'd always rather be early then late. So out popped the lap top and I just kinda fiddle faddled around the internet and then I noticed the gate kiosk said they were overbook and looking for volunteers. I figured hey I dont' have to work again for 3 days lets see what they are offering. I ask if they still need volunteers and the lady told me they did that I would be put on another flight that would get in only 3 hours later then my own and I would get a 500 dollar voucher for it. How could I turn that down. My husband and I want to take a trip before he leaves for basic to see his grandmother and his sister. How perfct would this be. Unfortunatley in the time between me volunteering and the time the plane left the seat I was supposed to be on the other flight was sold. UH OH! Of course the air line was going to be as accomodating as possible. I am now booked on first class for tonight going to Portland and then they are putting me up for the night and I fly home first thing in the morning. Not ideal, but do able. First class doesn't hurt my feelings either. Dinner was also on them. Thanks U.S. airways.

All in all a good trip. I learned a ton about my new job and the trainer told me he wished he could talk me into moving to Phoenix and being part of his staff. I'd say a very good compliment. At the end of the day my trainer handed me a Bear condo (as we call them) inside was a bear I had stuffed myself the prior day with a little graduation cap and gown and a little honors rob. I couldn't have been happier. What a great way to end a great week. I made new friends, learned a ton about work and for the first time in a long time wasn't stressed out about my job, life, etc.

Missing home!

I just started a new job, and lucky me I get to train in another state. Basically a free trip to Pheonix. I flew in yesterday morning and then had a quick workout and off to work I went. It was a good day and I really took home a lot of cool idea's for my store. I was fine the whole day until I got off and went back to the hotel. Immediatly I started missing Buggy and Billy. I called and talk to them for awhile or at least Billy. Buggy's new thing is NO so when daddy asked her to come talk to mommy on the phone it was just NO NO NO over and over again. I know its not personal it never really is at that age, but it still makes me feel kinda bad. I miss them a lot. We don't spend much time apart. I guess this is something I'll have to get used to especially once Billy goes to Basic training. Today should be another interesting day of training today, hopefully it will go faster than last night.

The weather sucks and so does my attitude this morning

I seem to be having one of those days were you wake up on the wrong side of the bed. I'm cranky and irritated with everything. Like the fact that my husband who is supposed to be dieting to lose weight to get his butt into the army decided to take a trip to QFC last night and get red velvet cake! Uggg its hard enough for me to stay away from stuff like that when its at the grocery store, but now I have to have it eyeball me every time I go into the kitchen! Silly I know, but I have a weekness for sweets and I feel like I'm being sabotaged along with my husband sabotaging himself. I'm being strong and haven't touched it, but I'm annoyed lol. I cooked myself a few pieces of sausage (3 carbs total) and and stack of medium chedder cheese, hopefully that will get rid of the nagging in my head to eat the cake. I am going to quickly finish my breakfast and go to the gym. I have found in the last few weeks that the gym is a good place to go get uncranky (is that a word). So I will make the windy, rainey, and cold trek to 24 hour fitness and work out for at least an hour.

I know I haven't talked about it much since I started blogging, but I am obese. That word makes me cringe, but that is what I am. I have always been overweight, but in the last 10 years (since highschool) I have become obese. I topped out at 306 a few months after my daughter was born and its taken me 2 years to realize I have to do something about it now! I had orginally planned to have gastric bypass, but through out the process there was always something in the back of my mind telling me not to do it. So they day of the surgery came I went to the hospital got all ready to go and then decided I wasn't making the right decision. For some reason I just felt I could do it on my own. To date I have lost 27 lbs, but I had got down 34 lbs. The last few weeks I have completely gone off my diet. I have been exercising, but for me that is no help. I know I will always struggle with my weight, but I really need to get down to a decent size. Its hard to have to only eat certain foods espeically when I work near so many good food places. I am starting my diet again today. I do low carbs (no more than 30 grams per day) and only drink water or iced tea with sweat and low. It works well for me if I follow it, but its hard to fight temptation to have good food. My current goal is to get to my prepregnancy weight fo 252 so as of today I have 27 lbs to do it in. I hope I can stick to the diet long enough to see that goal realized.