The weather sucks and so does my attitude this morning

I seem to be having one of those days were you wake up on the wrong side of the bed. I'm cranky and irritated with everything. Like the fact that my husband who is supposed to be dieting to lose weight to get his butt into the army decided to take a trip to QFC last night and get red velvet cake! Uggg its hard enough for me to stay away from stuff like that when its at the grocery store, but now I have to have it eyeball me every time I go into the kitchen! Silly I know, but I have a weekness for sweets and I feel like I'm being sabotaged along with my husband sabotaging himself. I'm being strong and haven't touched it, but I'm annoyed lol. I cooked myself a few pieces of sausage (3 carbs total) and and stack of medium chedder cheese, hopefully that will get rid of the nagging in my head to eat the cake. I am going to quickly finish my breakfast and go to the gym. I have found in the last few weeks that the gym is a good place to go get uncranky (is that a word). So I will make the windy, rainey, and cold trek to 24 hour fitness and work out for at least an hour.

I know I haven't talked about it much since I started blogging, but I am obese. That word makes me cringe, but that is what I am. I have always been overweight, but in the last 10 years (since highschool) I have become obese. I topped out at 306 a few months after my daughter was born and its taken me 2 years to realize I have to do something about it now! I had orginally planned to have gastric bypass, but through out the process there was always something in the back of my mind telling me not to do it. So they day of the surgery came I went to the hospital got all ready to go and then decided I wasn't making the right decision. For some reason I just felt I could do it on my own. To date I have lost 27 lbs, but I had got down 34 lbs. The last few weeks I have completely gone off my diet. I have been exercising, but for me that is no help. I know I will always struggle with my weight, but I really need to get down to a decent size. Its hard to have to only eat certain foods espeically when I work near so many good food places. I am starting my diet again today. I do low carbs (no more than 30 grams per day) and only drink water or iced tea with sweat and low. It works well for me if I follow it, but its hard to fight temptation to have good food. My current goal is to get to my prepregnancy weight fo 252 so as of today I have 27 lbs to do it in. I hope I can stick to the diet long enough to see that goal realized.