Sunday morning blahs

I would like to know why we can't start spring like the other half of the country. I'm tired of the cold and want it to be at least warm enough for me not to have to wear a jacket. Yesterdays high was a wopping 49 degrees, while my friends and family in other parts of the country get 75 and 80. Oh well I guess thats what I get for moving to the north.

I love having a sunday off. I don't know why its any different from any other day, but there is just something about Sundays. I have no plans as of right now, but I do at some point want to make my way to the grocery store and also to the gym. I've laid off the cardio a lot and really started weights but I'm not seeing the reults I thought I would. Part of that may have to do with the fact that I'm not eating nearly healthy enough. UGG I hate to diet or watch what I eat. Why does it have to be so much harder the older you get.? I've got to find the motivation I had a few months ago. Summer is coming and I am determined that this year I'm wearing shorts. I haven't worn shorts in years, because I carry a lot of my weight in my legs and can't ever find shorts that fit both my thighs and my waist comfortably. Anyone know any good exercises for the lower region of your body?

I'd like to break your damn computer!

I'd like to break my husbands computer! The man spends all his free time on it, playing his stupid video games. He leaves in just a few months for Basic training and he chooses to spend his time talking to people in other states he doesn't know and playing video games. I don't get it. I don't expect him to be with me and Buggy every min, but he's been playing the same game ALL day long. Only time he has stopped is to cook dinner and eat. It took him exactly 3.5 minutes to inhale his dinner so he could go back in there and continue to play. How does a wife compete? How do I get him to see that he's over doing it on the computer? To make matters worse he and I had asked his grandmother to come and visit us and he has spent zero time with her. She seems to be ok, but its driving me nuts. I would be so angry in her position.

Sittin at and airport in Phoenix

My work trip eneded today and so I made my way to the airport, dropped off my rental care, and then found myself at the gate over and hour and a half early. I'd always rather be early then late. So out popped the lap top and I just kinda fiddle faddled around the internet and then I noticed the gate kiosk said they were overbook and looking for volunteers. I figured hey I dont' have to work again for 3 days lets see what they are offering. I ask if they still need volunteers and the lady told me they did that I would be put on another flight that would get in only 3 hours later then my own and I would get a 500 dollar voucher for it. How could I turn that down. My husband and I want to take a trip before he leaves for basic to see his grandmother and his sister. How perfct would this be. Unfortunatley in the time between me volunteering and the time the plane left the seat I was supposed to be on the other flight was sold. UH OH! Of course the air line was going to be as accomodating as possible. I am now booked on first class for tonight going to Portland and then they are putting me up for the night and I fly home first thing in the morning. Not ideal, but do able. First class doesn't hurt my feelings either. Dinner was also on them. Thanks U.S. airways.

All in all a good trip. I learned a ton about my new job and the trainer told me he wished he could talk me into moving to Phoenix and being part of his staff. I'd say a very good compliment. At the end of the day my trainer handed me a Bear condo (as we call them) inside was a bear I had stuffed myself the prior day with a little graduation cap and gown and a little honors rob. I couldn't have been happier. What a great way to end a great week. I made new friends, learned a ton about work and for the first time in a long time wasn't stressed out about my job, life, etc.

Missing home!

I just started a new job, and lucky me I get to train in another state. Basically a free trip to Pheonix. I flew in yesterday morning and then had a quick workout and off to work I went. It was a good day and I really took home a lot of cool idea's for my store. I was fine the whole day until I got off and went back to the hotel. Immediatly I started missing Buggy and Billy. I called and talk to them for awhile or at least Billy. Buggy's new thing is NO so when daddy asked her to come talk to mommy on the phone it was just NO NO NO over and over again. I know its not personal it never really is at that age, but it still makes me feel kinda bad. I miss them a lot. We don't spend much time apart. I guess this is something I'll have to get used to especially once Billy goes to Basic training. Today should be another interesting day of training today, hopefully it will go faster than last night.

The weather sucks and so does my attitude this morning

I seem to be having one of those days were you wake up on the wrong side of the bed. I'm cranky and irritated with everything. Like the fact that my husband who is supposed to be dieting to lose weight to get his butt into the army decided to take a trip to QFC last night and get red velvet cake! Uggg its hard enough for me to stay away from stuff like that when its at the grocery store, but now I have to have it eyeball me every time I go into the kitchen! Silly I know, but I have a weekness for sweets and I feel like I'm being sabotaged along with my husband sabotaging himself. I'm being strong and haven't touched it, but I'm annoyed lol. I cooked myself a few pieces of sausage (3 carbs total) and and stack of medium chedder cheese, hopefully that will get rid of the nagging in my head to eat the cake. I am going to quickly finish my breakfast and go to the gym. I have found in the last few weeks that the gym is a good place to go get uncranky (is that a word). So I will make the windy, rainey, and cold trek to 24 hour fitness and work out for at least an hour.

I know I haven't talked about it much since I started blogging, but I am obese. That word makes me cringe, but that is what I am. I have always been overweight, but in the last 10 years (since highschool) I have become obese. I topped out at 306 a few months after my daughter was born and its taken me 2 years to realize I have to do something about it now! I had orginally planned to have gastric bypass, but through out the process there was always something in the back of my mind telling me not to do it. So they day of the surgery came I went to the hospital got all ready to go and then decided I wasn't making the right decision. For some reason I just felt I could do it on my own. To date I have lost 27 lbs, but I had got down 34 lbs. The last few weeks I have completely gone off my diet. I have been exercising, but for me that is no help. I know I will always struggle with my weight, but I really need to get down to a decent size. Its hard to have to only eat certain foods espeically when I work near so many good food places. I am starting my diet again today. I do low carbs (no more than 30 grams per day) and only drink water or iced tea with sweat and low. It works well for me if I follow it, but its hard to fight temptation to have good food. My current goal is to get to my prepregnancy weight fo 252 so as of today I have 27 lbs to do it in. I hope I can stick to the diet long enough to see that goal realized.

Oh what a day or few days!

Monday was a big day for me. After working for the same company for 9 and a half years I finally found a new job. Monday was my first day. I am now working for an awesome company. I spend my day making children smile. I play with them help them pick out clothes for their teddy bears and go out of my way to make them happy. Its great. I spend my day smiling and being silly and hearing these wonderful stories of their little lives. If you haven't figured it out I am working and Build a bear workshop. Its such a fun job I can't even describe. My first few days of training have been informative. I've learned how to stuff a bear and sew him up in the back, how to add sound and do a heart cerimony. Its great! My daughter is in love also. She is a big build a bear fan and has many to date. I can only imagine how many more will become part of our family.

This is a picture of Buggy's latest build a bear creation.

We call her Lolly Monkey

As it says in my last few blogs buggy and I both ended up pretty sick last week. Thankfully the medication given to us by our doctors kicked in right away. Buggy's 102 temperature died its last death last night and I am finally starting to get my voice back. My husband is a tad disappointed he says the house has been so peaceful without my screaming at him lol. Ahh what does he know! Unfortunatley us canceling the nanny on Monday because Buggy was sick seemed to have pissed her off and she told me today that she is no longer going to watch Buggy for us, so its back to the drawing board about who is going to watch her. Oh well I guess another one bites the dust. Nannies don't say around to often, because my and my husbands works schedules change week to week. Its hard when you work in retail or service industry.

Last night as I was going to bed I went to open a window in my room and what do I see around the windows seals? MOLD! I don't know how long its been growing but all 3 windows in my room have mold growing around them, also one in my living room and its starting to grow in the window in my daughters room. I have taken pictures and called my landlord. They are supposed be sending someone to clean it up and take care of it, but we'll see how that goes. I am going to write them a formal letter and send it certified mail in case the don't properly take care of it. I hope I'm not going to have to fight to get it properly taken care of. Only time will tell.

Well its only Tuesdays and I'm ready for the weekend. I'm tired, happy, tired and ready to relax. Hope everyone elses week is going good!

Sick kid, sick family!

Today was eventful. My 2 year old daughter came down with a moderate fever last night. We filled her with the usual tylenol and a temped bath and it came down. To bed she went were she slept through the night, but woke up early back up in the 101/102 range. She was playing and happy all day with her moderate temp until finally about 2 o' clock I went back to her room to check on her because she had been playing in there most of the day and what do I find in the middle of the hall way, Buggy! She had taken her diaper off (something she does often as we are in the middle of potty training) and was laying face down on the floor. I of course had a heart attack and quickly ran to her. She popped right up and said "diaper mommy...my back hurts" After taking her temperature for the 10oth time I made the decision that it was time for the ER. We get there and immediatly they start taking temperatures, asking questions, and feeling her neck and back. She hates every min and couldn't help but let us know. She is a daddy's girl so of course daddy had to hold her the entire time. I love watching him with her. They decide that because she had been complaining about her back hurting that maybe it was a kidney infection so they needed a urine sample. Its not like they can just hand a unpotty trained two year old a cup and say go pee in this. What that means is a small catheter is place in the bladder to get the urine. Wow oh wow was she not happy and I can't say that I blame her. Luckily it was quick and easy, but they still had an x-ray they wanted. Daddy went with her and it was over in a flash. They found a upper respitory virus and a possible urinary tract infection. They prescribed some medicine and sent her home with (in her words) a siclepop and a beanie baby. She was happy camper and seemed to perk right up when told she could say buh bye. We are home and she still has a moderate fever, but she's in a great mood running all over in nothing but her diaper and eating all the sisclepops she wants. Anyone have any suggestions how to get rid of a fever. We are doing tylenol and temped baths, but it keeps popping back up.

Jaden afte we got home from the ER

(Doesn't look sick does she?)